It was 1991… and what is a 16 year old girl thinking about? A car of course! One of my besties worked at a dealership around the corner from my school and needed to stop by her job so I went along for the ride…. Also because my dream car was in the showroom. It was beautiful… a black Grand Cherokee Loredo with leather interior and all of the bells and whistles. The idea literally popped in my head and convinced myself that I was going to get my dream car as a gift from my parents. I grabbed the marketing materials for the suv. It was this incredible booklet with amazing pictures and prices. I got home and was giddy with excitement. I was going to own this car and it was going to be amazing! Dad was in the sun porch watching tv… so I put my biggest smile on with the booklet in my sweaty hand and greeted my dad. “Hi!” I said in an overly excited voice because I had already decided that LL Cool J’s Mama Said Knock You Out Album was going to be the first to play on the (upgraded) “booming system” with the windows down, of course.
My dad took one look at me and said in a monotone voice, “Whatever it is… the answer is NO.” ...and then his eyes went back to the tv. “I have something to show you!” I pull out the booklet (that I was hiding behind my back) and I sit down next to him, “What’s this?” Yes, I have him… Dad is inquiring!!! This is my dream car and hopefully my first car? His eyes don’t leave the pages…. Even talking about each of the bells and whistles that made the car even more dynamic. I am showing him details because I have memorized what is on each page. He gets to the end of the booklet and says, “This car is beautiful.” (I am secretly dying inside and can already smell the new car smell and hear LL Cool J.) Dad continues, “...but you don’t want this car…” In the few seconds before I respond, I have a million thoughts running through my head… “This is my dream car but does he want something nicer for me?! Oh my goodness, am I about to get a Benz or my unrealistic dream of a RANGE ROVER!?!?!?!”
Dad continues, “What you want……(Yes, there was a long pause… or maybe it just felt like it...) ...What you want... is a JOB! You can’t afford this?! How much does this car cost?” I answer, “$30,000.00.” My smile literally started to liquify and was sliding off my skull. Dad says, “You are in high school… you don’t even make that in a year?!” I remember me using every reason why a 16 year old… HIS DAUGHTER, should have this car… Honestly… I feel like both of our voices started to sound like the adults in the Charlie Brown specials that play during the holidays… “Wah-wah-wahhhh”. The last thing that I heard him say was, “Shana, you don’t even have your license yet. Get your driver’s license and we will talk about a car. Not this car… but a car. First things first.” My 16 year old version of myself was crushed...
Hahaha, what was I thinking?
- Shana Bly Washington